I do not see the love in telling people they’re worthless.
I’m tired of separating myself from people.
Don’t tell anyone -including yourself- that they don’t deserve love.
I decided to make this post a little different today. In the past, there were times I honestly just gave up on this blog. I had to work, I had to do chores, schoolwork was too much etc. I came up with all these excuses as to why I couldn’t do what I wanted to do and that left me a little depressed. But what matters is that I can work through these excuses and keep going.
I’ve had this blog for years and I’ve always been on and off with it. One month, I can work on it a lot, the next, I barley get any sleep due to all the work I have to do. Now, I’m finally at a place where I think I can do this. I can find a way to better my writing and make this blog successful as long as I keep on writing. As long as I can ride through the messy parts of it and hopefully create writing that gets better and better.
I think anyone can, as long as they don’t give up.
Thank you for reading. 🙂
I’ve been trying to work on posts and make them a lot better than they have been. Most of the upcoming ones will have links to studies. I’ll try my best to find ones that are accurate and have been repeated. I hope over time I will become better at looking through them and hopefully people will call me out if I’m wrong.
College has helped me get a better understanding of studies. Although the stats are sometimes hard to follow so I’ll try to find a way to understand them better.
I’ve written out a whole layout of what I want this blog to become. I worked on a few posts, but there not at all presentable yet and I still think I need to write more before I start cleaning out this blog.
Even though I’ve made plenty of mistakes along the way, I’m happy I’ve made it this far.
In some ways I never realized just how much I’ve been pulling myself backward. I can’t believe I’ve expected myself to get something right the first time, while countless others who have made something of themselves will tell me time and time again that it wasn’t easy -at all.
If you want something you have to love failure more than you want to watch a movie or just sit around and play a game all day. Anything worth while in life is going to be hard. Yes, I get that some people will have the silver spoon, but sometimes they don’t know how to use it. It is okay to compare yourself to others, sometimes that is what will drive you forward. However, you can’t focus on them forever, try to keep your eye on what you want your life to become for a long as you can.
Soon, I will have written around 200 posts for this blog, given that not all of them have a lot of words, but that has to count for something right? Trying to get my ass up and work on this blog hasn’t always been easy -but when I see people enjoying it I know how much it was worth it.
I haven’t had the best hand at art either, but with each one I make, it gets better. Sometimes you just have to keep going until you finally hit the gold.
It is hard sometimes for me to see that some people have been on here for the same amount of time as me and have ended up doing much much better than I did. I have to remind myself that throughout the time I’ve been writing, that this blog hasn’t always been my focus. I have to remind myself that this is really only just the beginning of something good. If I work hard enough, doing this will become easier.
It is hard to see if anything could become of this when you feel like other people deserve more than you do, but some people probably felt that way too when they first started writing.
For a while, it has been hard for me to figure out what I stand for. I’ve only been out of high school for a few years and I feel like I’m still discovering who I am. I wonder quite a bit about how my blog might be affected by not sticking to one niche. But I guess I’ll just have to keep working at and see where it goes.
There is still a lot about my life that I haven’t allowed others to discover about me. Some bloggers like to keep it that way, but I don’t want to hide if the things I’ve gone through can help someone.
I can almost guarantee that no one who reads this is going to have the same exact opinion as me, but I think its time that I find something to stand for. I do like to write up book reviews, but I feel like sometimes the real writer in me is hiding behind them. Like I’m trying to block people from seeing my own creativity and opinions on things other than fictional books.
I think a lot of people want to make everything about their life on social media look like a Disney movie. Well, as of now I’m tired of forcing a smile on my face. Now, you will see my opinion based on personal experience as well as studies. I’m tried of hiding behind a curtain.
If you find new information, you should use it.
As I live in this world there are times,
When I feel your love so close to me,
It burns underneath my skin,
And vibrates within my body.
But then their are times,
When I feel there is a wall of ice.
Separating me from you,
With my own idea of what you should be,
Pushing you away.
Sometimes I wish my spirit could burst out of this body,
So I might truly see yours.
And tell you -genuinely- how much I love you.
I want to do more than live a okay life.