Things I’m Tired of Telling Myself

 

I haven’t been motivated to do much lately and I’m pretty sure it’s due to the fact that I’ve been beating myself down. I thought I could jungle school, writing, working out, working at my job as a dish washer(sounds awesome right?) as well as volunteering at an animal shelter and getting chores done on top of all that. I’ve kind of beaten myself up about it and I’ve reached a low point where I’m not doing too great in all the things I’ve invested some time into. I think if I make a list of things I’m tired of telling myself then maybe I’ll be able to improve myself more -and more importantly try to help anyone who might be willing to take the time to read this.

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Finding Happiness

It’s clear that I’ve been neglecting this blog as well as my other social media accounts. I’ve been on and off social media, on and off school, on and off working out and trying to eat a healthy -although I have managed to stay vegan since August. I’ve realized once again that I’ve been doing things other people want me to do and not exactly what I want to do.

My parents want me to go to college as most parents do. I’ve spent the fall studying to be a vet tech and I’m still currently doing that. However, Even though I’ve applied to vet clinics I still haven’t been offered a job and now that I’ve had time to think about it I’m not sure if its a good fit for me. I still love books, but I also love animals and many many other things.

I’ve been trying to balance out what is most important to me. If I stay in college and become a vet tech I only make a few dollars more than I’m making at my current job so I might only make 15 dollars an hour after spending thousands of dollars for college. I might have to give animals heavy medications and as a firm believer in using the power of food to help heal ourselves as well as animals I’d find it hard for me to do that,

The only thing I’ve found through my cluttered mind was that I was stressed last semester and I tried to make everything perfect. I think I overworked myself and I didn’t spend any time with friends- not even over winter break. This semester I just don’t care, I mean I like some of my classes especially my science class, but the other classes I’m required to make for my degree are just ridiculous.

When I was blogging -more for myself and not for my classes- I felt a lot happier. After this semester I told my parents that I wanted to take a break and just explore the things I was able to do without thousands of dollars of debt dangling in front of my face. Once this semester is over, I plan just read, work out, eat well, try to make myself better rather than do what other people want me to do. I’m also hoping I can just hang out with friends more and just try to find what will make me happy.