Why I Read…

1. It’s relaxing

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Sometimes books can calm me down. It’s nice to read something where I feel like I’m there, ya know? I’m not working my nine to five job, instead I’m fighting imagery people with my imagery best friends and we’re solving real life….

Umm, wait I mean fictional problems.

Books can sometimes take me places, like instead of being in boring old America I’m in Paris or Nazi, wait, just kidding that one wasn’t that relaxing.

But my downright favorite book absolutely has to be The Ancient Secret of the Flower of Life. And now I’m 100% convinced that some of us came from dolphins. This book has now put me on such a spiritual..

Okay I literally cannot write that anymore because now it’s just getting ridiculous. On a serious note, I do think that author is probably super smart and has written a lot of cool stuff in that book, but human dolphins? Sorry dude, I need a little more evidence.

2. Empathy

 

empathy

Some books are really good at teaching empathy -others are quite the opposite. Especially if its meant to fuel propaganda… but thats probably a discussion for another day.

I do think Holocaust books, books about racial inequality. Pretty much any book that teaches us about how separating ourselves from others is bad will teach how to have empathy for other people.

3. Imagination

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Sometimes after I read a book, it gives me a creative vibe. Sometimes I’ll even paint after I read and I end up really liking what I made. It helps me think of things I won’t normally think of. Reading helps me to think of new ideas.

4. It’s a movie in your mind

 

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I’ve always liked the book better than the movie, most authors don’t control the exact image you see in your head. If the author says someone looks pretty than you visualizes what you think is pretty, there is no image of picture there to control what the character’s supposed to look like.

To be honest, I’ve found it easier to remember books better than movies. Maybe it’s due to using my own ideas to ‘create’ them in a way. As opposed to other people shoving exactly what they want their ideas to look like in my face.

5. Better discussions

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I think reading books can help to fuel some really good discussions. It helps people think even deeper about life, we start asking some pretty serious questions and figure out what we think works and what doesn’t work in the world. Book discussions can sometimes help us solve real life problems.

I’ve found book discussion to be a lot more meaningful as opposed to the majority of movies. Yes, some movies can be thought provoking. However, I’ve found myself asking more questions after reading a book rather than watching a movie.

6. Last, but not least.. THE SMELL

 

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The smell of a book, new or old, is unique, I think it is one of the most wonderful smells in the world. If frebreze made a scent that smelled like books then I would certainly try it. I remember on of my first books I read was The Black Stallion by Walter Farley. And I read the one my dad had had for years. It had a plain black cover, the pages were yellow from age and it had ink drawings of the story pop up every once in a while. It was a good read, and I loved the old book smell.

The Book Thief: Book Discussion

I just finshed The Book Thief. Out of all the books I’ve read I don’t think I’ve ever read I book structured like this one — or one that had death as the narrator. I knew this book was a histoical fiction on world war two. Yet despite its morbid setting the narrator was able to make it a lot less depressing. Like how he found distraction in the sky and how he carried the well worn souls of people away. And as death revealed his definition of the nature of people I began to have more questions:

1. In the beginning of the book, Liesel’s brother dies from sickness. They were both still children when her brother was buried in frozen ground. When was the first time someone died in your life? How did it make you feel? Did it encourage you to do something impulse like stealing a book in Liesel’s case?

My cousin died in a car accident when I was six. I was lucky to have only seen the body at the funeral rather than watch the life come out of him. I remember being in the kitchen of house and my mom was praying and crying. That was when I first discovered dealth. I felt a loss as immortally as if it was already there by default, but the dealth of my cousin brought it to an end. I had only met him a few times so the event was significant enough for me to remember small details, but I don’t think I was too emotional.

2. When she came to the Hubermann’s it was her Papa that got her to get out of the car. He always stayed with her and helped her whenever she had nightamares. When you were young did anyone do this for you?

I only ever remember a babysitter comforting me when I had a bad dream. She was nice, and she picked me up and held me. I’m lucky mine weren’t really ever that bad.

When she plays soccer with the kids in her street, and throughout the book she mostly plays with the boys. Why is this? Why not Kristina or one of Rudy’s sisters? Could this have something to do with the loss of her brother?

This is something I didn’t realize until now. I don’t know too much about the history of Germany, but I do know throughout history many women have been told to stay at home. I think it could be due to the fact that she’s in a poorer neighborhood and doesn’t have time to mess with her hair, gossip, or do whatever else girls did in those days. I’m not saying all girls are sentive, but her foster mother probably gave her a month that not everyone can bear. So that might have had something to do with why she didn’t hang out with many girls her age. I think it coud’ve had something to do with her brother, maybe she tried to find pieces of him in the boys she talked. Maybe it was what she was fimlair with and just went with it. Or maybe there just wasn’t many girls her age on her street.

3. Ludwig makes fun of her when she struggles to read. Do you think she had the right to beat him senseless? Or was just telling she not stupid enough?

I think a teacher should’ve intervened, but back then that just wasn’t what happened. I think that only due to the time she was in that it was the right thing to do. Back then, teacher seemed to only hand out punishments to the ones that pyshically attacked someone, but whenever a kid was verbally assaulted it seems there wasn;t much done about it. Again, I won’t agree with it in present day, but back then there wasn’t much science. If someone didn’t agree with someone else, they got beat up and only the winner could make the decision. People didn’t agrue as passlively as we do now. If she didn’t beat him then, he might have beaten her up later. It could;ve lowered in self worth and she might have ever been the person she became.

In the book, Liesel and Rudy become thevies. At one point they put ice on the road and steal from a boy named Otto (check this) as he is delervery food to catholic presits. Rudy seems to point out that these men are already well feed. And that Otto must be since his parnets are asking him to deliver the food. Did they have a right to do this?

I think it would’ve been better for them to just ask and maybe the boy would’ve given them something for their trouble. Maybe he would’ve helped them a lot if he really wanted to. I don’t think making him fall off his bike was the right thing to do. I know that they’re kids, maybe if they’d known what’s in their future they would’ve acted differently.

4. When Han’s son is introduced into the book, he wonders why his father is letting the girl read the books she has and tells him she should be reading Mein Kief (look up). Right when he leaves Hans tries to stop him, but his son moves him aside and calls him a coward. Is Hans really a coward for not trying to go head first into dealth? Is his son brave for defending his country or a hypocrite?

I think its his son who’s a hypocrite. He isn’t brave, he’s just following the crowd. He didn’t do the things his dad, mom, and adopted sister ever did. Maybe he was a coward in the first war, but in that moment trying to go against the Nazi nonsense was better than going with it.

Hans takes care of a promise he made to a freind and keeps his jewish son Max(check this) in his home. Would you ever do this for a friend? Do you think his son knew about his jewish friend and didn’t care or do you think it would change his point of view if Hans told him the story?

I could see myself doing this for a family member. For a friend? Well, it would probably depend on how close we are. As for Max(check this) I think he probably already knew about his dad’s jewish friend he fought world war one with and just didn’t care. It seems like a pretty ignorant bastard.

5. Max plays a significant role in Liesel’s life. When do you think the fear of his thoughts turned into freindship and understanding? Is it possible that she saw a part of her brother in him?

I think their might have been a fear of him when she first met him and he grabbed her arm. I don’t think they really understood each other until they shared nightmares. I think she saw a part of her brother in him. When she brough the snowman inside I think that at least for a moment she thought of her brother buried underneath snow.

6. Her papa is whipped for giving bread to a jew. Would you have done this? How would you feel if soldiers paraded people like this on your street?

I might, but I’d probably do it from high up where no one could see me. Get on a roof and through the the bread so the germans would wonder what the hell is happening. I think it would really depend on my family though, if mine wasn’t the 10% that didn’t join the nazis or if they joined but didn’t really like them. If my family liked what Hilter was doing chances are I probably would too and even if I didn’t I’d probably face more than being whipped by a guard. If I was alive during both wars I’d probably at least in my head wonder what the fuck was going on. We just did one war and now were parading prisoners around? If I was only alive during world war two I think that, again it would depend on my family.

5.  Liesel’s father, Rudy’s brother(check this) and father are sent into world war two. It seems this is a punshiment for her Papa after giving bread to the jews. Would you be willing to go into a war you didn’t want to fight? How do you think people in these communities felt when they sons, husbands and fathers who had no choice, but to fight in a war they didn’t want?

I wouldn’t really, but if I had a family to take care of I’d probably have to during that time. If I was a wife, daughter of sister to men that where forced to go to war, I’d probably think of it as normal then. But now, I’m honestly just fed up with countries uses people as pawns. Most leaders don’t go to war unless nesscary now, but I still think there’s a lot of war and battles that just didn’t need to happen.

6. Rudy dies before he is ever able to get a kiss for Liesel. Should she have kissed him at a different time when he was alive or was that time appreciate?

I think that time was appropriate although it was super depressing. They were just kids so they probably thought they had all the time in the world and wanted to wait for the “right moment,” but sadly it seems that moment never came.

7. The mayor’s wife seems to end up caring for Liesel in the end. Do you think the mayor knows his wife views on the jews and Nazi germany? Why do you think she might want her even though she stole her books and insulted her?

I don’t think he really knows, he might be too busy doing other things to really pay attention to her opinions. I don’t remember reading anything to suggest that he did. I think she wanted her because she had become the wake up call she needed. Her son was dead, and unfortunately she couldn’t do anything about, but move on and move forward.

8. In the end, Max ends up being rescued and he find Liesel once again. Would you be satfisyed that despite all the hardship at least him and the mayors wife survived? If you could choose one character that ended up surviving with Liesel who would you choose and why?

Yes, I think after seeing all that rumble I’d probably be afraid that everyone I knew —as well as everywhere I knew— was gone. If I could choose one character to survive with her it would probably be Max. She would’ve probably meant everything to him since her family as well as his family was must likely gone. He would’ve been young enough to work and help her out. And as a jew rescued from a concentration camp he might have gotten a lot of help.

 

Feel free to answer these questions in the comments below, let me know what you think!

 

Atheism

I’ve been an atheist since I graduated High School. Over the years, I’ve been trying to figure out what it means to me. Now that I’ve held this ideology for a while, I’m going to discuss what I believe as an atheist and I will discuss the discrimination against people who aren’t religious and how it’s affected our lives. Not all of us believe in the same thing and we don’t always define it the same way. I think that we don’t really claim anything which I will explain down below.

 

a·the·ist
/ˈāTHēəst/
 
noun
  1. a person who disbelieves or lacks belief in the existence of God or gods.
     

 

My definition of atheism is a lack in belief of a god or gods. That is the same thing as saying I doubt there is a god or gods. By doing this I do not need a claimI am not saying that I know for 100% certainty that one doesn’t exist, but I do know I haven’t found enough evidence to prove there is one either. Why would I push people to believe in something if I’m not even sure it exists? Theists however, do make a claim. Now theism brings a wide range of people. As a theist without roots to specific religion they only have to find evidence for a god. Now being a christian is different since not only are they trying to prove god, but also need to prove how creationism is possible, if Jesus ever existed and how re-carnation is possible at the very least. Faith and personal testimonies cannot be used here. Researchers don’t use faith and personal testimonies to improve the lives of their patience so why use cognitive dissonance when it comes to ideologies? And why think that people who don’t believe in religion don’t have any morals? 

I have values without the limitations of religion. I am able to create my own moral code without clinging to one belief system. I am as bold as to argue that mine is better then a bunch of sexiest pigs from thousands of years ago that probably wouldn’t have even let me have my own opinion. I don’t eat animals because I know I don’t have to. I try to take good care of our world so the next generation can enjoy it. I try to exercise and eat whole foods to keep myself healthy and that is more than what a lot of other people are willing to do. 

I’m done with people trying to scare me into getting what they want. I’m done with watching people play high horse and catering to them. Atheism has shown me that I am no ones puppet to be played with. I will not listen to preachers who don’t know what fallacies are. And never again will I be guilt tripped into giving money to a church who is likely to spend it on remodeling. I know that not all churches do this, but I do think that many megachurches do. And yes, I know churches give to charities, but they don’t fix the core problem. They give people sandwiches instead of teaching people how to make one. Which I will discuss this in a different post. Religion sets many limitations on people, sometimes to the point of asking them to repress their own nature. 

Atheism gave us freedom. The freedom to revise our lives in ways that most of us never thought possible. I think that many people find this freedom as a reason to show that atheists don’t have values. And that honestly makes me laugh. I’m not the one kicking my son and daughters out of my home because they are gay. I’m not the one suppressing women and refusing to give kids blood transfusions. I’m not saying that all atheists are good. And I’m not saying all Christians are bad either. All I want to to be looked at as human. The US wasn’t truly free when it was first created, and it hasn’t until the last couple of decades in America that we finally have a voice. 

I’ve found that this is the best way to expand my knowledge. I’m not forcing myself to be confined to a certain belief system. I’m exploring possibilities and not claiming that I know everything for sure because we as people haven’t explored everything yet. It also allows me to be okay with people exploring different paths other than my own. We all have slightly different value systems. And although I will respect the value systems others to a degree I think that atheism still tolerates different paths more than religious ones since the definition is so broad. And I’m not saying I won’t tolerate christianity. We can’t help each other by forcing people to be a certain way. I still think there are some aspects of christianity that some of us need to reconsider —but not all of it. 

We need to explore this world a lot more than people might think. Our society keeps holding onto spefic paths and tries to convince us that going on another one would be too risky. How are we supposed to learn if we keep doing the same thing over and over again? 

Religion is like saying, “I know this because I interrupted this book this way.” Atheism is like saying, “I don’t know many things for sure since we’re still human and we are likely to make many errors, but I doubt the existence of a god.” 

 

 

Summer Reflection

These past few months have been crazy, in good ways and bad. I’ve finally moved out of my parents house which is a big step for me. However, the added responsibility has made it pretty difficult to write and work on other hobbies. And covid and politics haven’t helped much either.

However, I’m done beating myself up about this.

I thought 2020 would be the year I’d write a lot. The year that I’d somehow become insanely successful. I’ve realized now that I can’t have everything and I’m fine with the scarifies I’ve made. Do I want to become a good writer and artist? Yes absolutely! But if it means never having food on the table it will remain my hobby. I used to and still sometimes do complain about how I don’t have time for anything. I forget that I made those choices. I chose to create a busy life for myself and to relax when I chose to relax. I’m done bringing myself down for not working 24/7. As much as there’s goals I want to achieve I also want to enjoy life. To hang out with friends, go for walks, instead of telling myself I should be doing college and school full time while also working on hobbies and finding time to hang out with people. I’m done putting too much on myself.

For now, I’m going to try and focus on what makes me happy rather than waste time telling myself I need to be doing all these things to have a good life. I will write when I want want to and not feel bad about all the time I could’ve spent doing it.